Another one
11 Nov 2009 5 Comments
in Poetry Tags: anger, despair, Jealousy, Selfishness
How can I sit and watch my dreams
Fulfilled for everyone but me?
I smile, but inside I am dying
Although I try, I know they see
Just when I think I’m at a place
Where I can breathe without the pain
Another call….another one….
I’m clutching at my throat again
So lost in all my selfish thoughts
A quick excuse to get away
HOW COULD THEY EVER UNDERSTAND?!
So what more is there left to say?
I hate myself for hating them
It makes me sick, what I’ve become
The jealousy picking at my stitches
Until once again, I come undone
I wish I could share their joy
But I can’t master the disguise
And it only magnifies my bitterness
To see the pity in their eyes
I need a fire to warm this ice
But I need the ice to dull the ache
It had been too many long years
And there’s only so much I can take
