Just believe
13 May 2010 5 Comments
in Poetry Tags: choices, Courage, Determination, fear, freedom, hope, journey, Path, Poetry
I feel it building in my heart
And I just can not help but smile
Although I know that hope is dangerous
I think I’ll keep it for a while
Although it’s possible I’ll fall
I can not fight the urge to climb
And make the choice to just believe
A choice I may regret in time
If I always protect my heart
How can it ever really feel?
How would I ever feel alive?
How could I know what’s true and real?
This somehow feels like a beginning
A new unknown and winding road
A way to find my place, my purpose
To use the gifts I was bestowed
I’m apprehensive and I’m scared
I’ve never been good with ‘unknown’
But I look back at where I’ve travelled
And I can see how much I’ve grown
So I take comfort in that fact
And summon all my strength and fear
I have to risk the pain, just jump
Or I’ll always be standing here
Caged
06 May 2010 6 Comments
in Poetry Tags: fear, freedom, light, Longing, LOVE, Path, Poetry
I float between the dreams and nightmares
And I have come to fear the dark
Each battle that I’ve fought and lost
Has etched a deep and painful mark
I’ve learned to live some kind of normal
Although it’s with a fevered mind
I’m so intent to walk this road
But it’s so clear I’m running blind
I’m tired of living under shadow
Being denied what is my right
I want the freedom to be free
To live a life of love and light
I try so hard just to be happy
When I should never have to try
They should have never clipped my wings
Because I was always meant to fly
Walk away
30 Mar 2010 3 Comments
in Poetry Tags: anger, Courage, freedom, honesty, journey, Selfishness, Spirit
You try to break me with your words
You try to bind me with your fear
For me to see the world your way
An uninspiring pupeteer
My heart is fierce, my spirit wild
I can not walk the path you tread
A vision darkened and mundane
No coloured dreams to share your bed
How can you live your life asleep?
Without elation, without pain
Never breathing winds of change
Or dancing barefoot in the rain
You can not crush me or control me
I will not fold under your stare
You live your days locked in a coma
Always here, never aware
I’ll walk away without regret
I will embrace it, breathe it in
I’ll leave you to your selfish games
Comfort in knowing, you’ll never win
Incomplete
02 Mar 2010 1 Comment
in Poetry Tags: choices, Courage, Determination, FIGHT, freedom, Heart, hope, inner voice, inspiration, journey, Life, Path
I need to rise above the clouds
I need to see it, breathe it in
I need to feel alive again
Before my soul stretches too thin
This here is not all I can be
My mind, my heart, it aches for more
I refuse to reach the end
And wonder what it all was for
Like it or not, I AM my heart
I can no longer drown it out
But I look at what is past
And everything is lost in doubt
I can not be consumed by pain
I can not settle for this hand
I want to know that it’s ok
To fly not knowing where I’ll land
There is so much left unexplored
I feel so small, so incomplete
I want to change the world, my world
I can not fold, admit defeat
I need to set the dark on fire
To make a change, to be fulfilled
To have a voice, a gift, a reason
To heal, inspire and rebuild
I feel it churning deep inside
Just burning, screaming to be free
Despite the fear, no turning back
It’s time to fly, it’s time to see
Clouds
24 Nov 2009 3 Comments
in Poetry Tags: freedom, honesty, Poetry, Spirit
Please don’t tell me to come down
Because I’m happy way up here
Alone with my imagination
Away from everything I fear
Why should I rejoin the world?
It offers nothing that I need
It only kicks me when I’m down
Then hangs around to watch me bleed
Lost in my words and dreams
I feel so safe, I feel so free
No need to edit my personas
I can be real, I can be me
My toes are still touching the ground
Although you fear I’m losing touch
I keep my head up in the clouds
So that it doesn’t hurt as much
Its my induced poetic coma
That keeps the pain from breaking through
But somehow even in the clouds
I still can’t keep my thoughts from you
Nowhere to run
09 Nov 2009 3 Comments
in Poetry Tags: FIGHT, freedom, Truth
I see it lurking in the shadows
I sense it stalking while I sleep
When I laugh, I feel it’s fury
Feel it’s elation when I weep
No matter how fast I can run
It never seems to fall behind
And it can always seek me out
Despite the hiding place I find
It’s changing everything I know
Distorting everything I feel
Making the life that I once knew
Seem far away and so unreal
I shake my head to shun these thoughts
Because they should not belong to me
To run, to find another life
To keep on searching til I’m free
But it would find me, hunt me down
And turn all light off out of spite
It’s now or never, so I turn
And find it’s me I have to fight
