Incomplete
02 Mar 2010 1 Comment
in Poetry Tags: choices, Courage, Determination, FIGHT, freedom, Heart, hope, inner voice, inspiration, journey, Life, Path
I need to rise above the clouds
I need to see it, breathe it in
I need to feel alive again
Before my soul stretches too thin
This here is not all I can be
My mind, my heart, it aches for more
I refuse to reach the end
And wonder what it all was for
Like it or not, I AM my heart
I can no longer drown it out
But I look at what is past
And everything is lost in doubt
I can not be consumed by pain
I can not settle for this hand
I want to know that it’s ok
To fly not knowing where I’ll land
There is so much left unexplored
I feel so small, so incomplete
I want to change the world, my world
I can not fold, admit defeat
I need to set the dark on fire
To make a change, to be fulfilled
To have a voice, a gift, a reason
To heal, inspire and rebuild
I feel it churning deep inside
Just burning, screaming to be free
Despite the fear, no turning back
It’s time to fly, it’s time to see
New beginning
12 Jan 2010 1 Comment
in Poetry Tags: Family, FIGHT, Heart, hope, LOVE, Path
Starting today a new beginning
I will no longer doubt our strength
To keep us both from going under
I swear I’ll go to any length
I’m sorry that we lost our way
But please believe these words are true
The only family I long for
Is one thats part of me and you
I wasn’t prepared to feel this helpless
For it to ever be this hard
Something that should have been so natural
To leave us torn, stripped bare and scarred
Whatever’s past, I’ve never doubted
The way you’ve loved me from the start
My world just makes no sense without you
You are my home, you are my heart
But this is hard, we’re only human
The world won’t shatter if we shout
We need to stop walking on eggshells
And tell the truth, just let it out
This should have never been our burden
We don’t deserve what we go through
But I will only walk this path
Because I’m walking it with you
Enough?
30 Dec 2009 2 Comments
in Poetry Tags: FIGHT, Heart, LOVE, Path, Poetry, test
Will our love save us if this fails?
Could we survive the biggest test?
When everything is said and done
Will we have tried our very best?
What once stood solid now feels shaky
I’m scared it just won’t be enough
To rely on everything we were
Before our path became so rough
We seem to just go through the motions
I don’t feel safe, I don’t feel sure
Is there a way we can get back there?
Can it be like it was before?
I am confused and I am lost
But after all that we’ve been through
Although right now it isn’t whole
My heart always belongs to you
I need to know that you can hear me
That you can feel the things I feel
We can’t just dream about that life
We need to choose, then make it real
I know that things are complicated
But you knew right from the start
The only way that I can live
Is if there’s fire in my heart
We can’t become each others habit
We can’t keep passing in the night
You have to prove you really want this
You have to be prepared to fight
The world still turns
10 Dec 2009 3 Comments
in Poetry Tags: Acceptance, FIGHT, hope, Strength
I can not let this take me under
I must accept what can’t be changed
I found a nightmare in my dreams
But nothing else has rearranged
The world still turns and I’m amazed
It doesn’t end when hope is gone
I still wake up, breathe in and out
The sun still shines and life goes on
It is a curse to own my heart
What I would give to just be numb
Instead the words and feelings rush me
Untill I’m completely overcome
I have to hold on to the thought
It will be worth it at the end
I will be stronger from this fight
And have the time and space to mend
This life is more than overwhelming
Sometimes I just can’t stand my ground
But really what’s the point in screaming
If no one’s there to hear the sound
We have one life, we have to live it
We can’t just let joy pass us by
The climb is tough and high and scary
But we can make it if we try.
Army of words
17 Nov 2009 4 Comments
in Poetry Tags: Consumed, FIGHT, Longing, mask, Strength
I hover always on the edge
With only words to hold me still
My private army against the sorrow
Ready to aim and fire at will
A way to calm my racing pulse
Convince myself I can survive
A way to show my true identity
Combat the numb, and feel alive
The life I live is feeling shallow
Too many things I have to be
Too many faces to put on
That all just hide the real me
I have a beautiful reality
But can’t help wanting something more
Instead of taking in the view
I am just staring at the door
Sometimes I see it in the dark
I feel its warmth, and I just beam
But then the daylight crashes through
And I realize, its still a dream
Nowhere to run
09 Nov 2009 3 Comments
in Poetry Tags: FIGHT, freedom, Truth
I see it lurking in the shadows
I sense it stalking while I sleep
When I laugh, I feel it’s fury
Feel it’s elation when I weep
No matter how fast I can run
It never seems to fall behind
And it can always seek me out
Despite the hiding place I find
It’s changing everything I know
Distorting everything I feel
Making the life that I once knew
Seem far away and so unreal
I shake my head to shun these thoughts
Because they should not belong to me
To run, to find another life
To keep on searching til I’m free
But it would find me, hunt me down
And turn all light off out of spite
It’s now or never, so I turn
And find it’s me I have to fight
