Just believe
13 May 2010 5 Comments
in Poetry Tags: choices, Courage, Determination, fear, freedom, hope, journey, Path, Poetry
I feel it building in my heart
And I just can not help but smile
Although I know that hope is dangerous
I think I’ll keep it for a while
Although it’s possible I’ll fall
I can not fight the urge to climb
And make the choice to just believe
A choice I may regret in time
If I always protect my heart
How can it ever really feel?
How would I ever feel alive?
How could I know what’s true and real?
This somehow feels like a beginning
A new unknown and winding road
A way to find my place, my purpose
To use the gifts I was bestowed
I’m apprehensive and I’m scared
I’ve never been good with ‘unknown’
But I look back at where I’ve travelled
And I can see how much I’ve grown
So I take comfort in that fact
And summon all my strength and fear
I have to risk the pain, just jump
Or I’ll always be standing here
Walk away
30 Mar 2010 3 Comments
in Poetry Tags: anger, Courage, freedom, honesty, journey, Selfishness, Spirit
You try to break me with your words
You try to bind me with your fear
For me to see the world your way
An uninspiring pupeteer
My heart is fierce, my spirit wild
I can not walk the path you tread
A vision darkened and mundane
No coloured dreams to share your bed
How can you live your life asleep?
Without elation, without pain
Never breathing winds of change
Or dancing barefoot in the rain
You can not crush me or control me
I will not fold under your stare
You live your days locked in a coma
Always here, never aware
I’ll walk away without regret
I will embrace it, breathe it in
I’ll leave you to your selfish games
Comfort in knowing, you’ll never win
Incomplete
02 Mar 2010 1 Comment
in Poetry Tags: choices, Courage, Determination, FIGHT, freedom, Heart, hope, inner voice, inspiration, journey, Life, Path
I need to rise above the clouds
I need to see it, breathe it in
I need to feel alive again
Before my soul stretches too thin
This here is not all I can be
My mind, my heart, it aches for more
I refuse to reach the end
And wonder what it all was for
Like it or not, I AM my heart
I can no longer drown it out
But I look at what is past
And everything is lost in doubt
I can not be consumed by pain
I can not settle for this hand
I want to know that it’s ok
To fly not knowing where I’ll land
There is so much left unexplored
I feel so small, so incomplete
I want to change the world, my world
I can not fold, admit defeat
I need to set the dark on fire
To make a change, to be fulfilled
To have a voice, a gift, a reason
To heal, inspire and rebuild
I feel it churning deep inside
Just burning, screaming to be free
Despite the fear, no turning back
It’s time to fly, it’s time to see
The void
17 Feb 2010 4 Comments
in Poetry Tags: choices, Courage, inner voice, Poetry, Strength, test
At first the fear catches my breath
The emptiness is like a shroud
I feel like nobody could hear me
Because the silence is so loud
Colour ceases to exist
It isn’t black it isn’t white
I can’t tell if I stand in darkness
Or if I’m blinded by the light
But suddenly I realise
That I am safe, that I am free
Of all the fear, of all the pain
The outside world has offered me
I scream my questions to the void
But the reply comes from my heart
“You have the strength, you can’t give up
And you have known that from the start”
Her voice is calm and powerful
Now it brings me to my knees
“I don’t know how to keep on going
Loan me your strength and help me please”
She says “Let go of all that binds you
Follow your heart, it’s who we are
And each and every time you need me
Just reach inside, I won’t be far
Accept sometimes there are no answers
No line between what’s wrong and right
Don’t lose your faith, it’s all we have
How can you win if you won’t fight?”
It washes over me in waves
I know I’ll find the strength…somehow
Although I know I can not stay here
It is my sanctuary for now.
Still standing
15 Dec 2009 1 Comment
in Poetry Tags: Courage, honesty, Path, Poetry, Strength
I want to still believe in magic
I want to write of more than pain
I need to know more than this life
With all its levels of insane
This really should have been so simple
But then my world turned upside down
Since then I’ve just been treading water
It would be so easy just to drown
I know I’m stronger than I was
But still so fragile, so unsure
This unknown path is a disease
My mind can’t cope without a cure
I fly, I fall, I ache, I grieve
I lose myself, just for a while
Then realise I am still standing
And through the tears I can still smile
I CAN DO THIS! You don’t believe me?
Then you have no business being here
You will not take my hope, my courage
And make me give into the fear
I can not change what’s been and gone
Though each fall leaves me with a scar
I can’t give up accept defeat
When I’ve already come so far
For now this is all I can do
A selfish quest that is my right
Though I keep plunging into darkness
I will keep reaching for the light
…..
28 Nov 2009 2 Comments
in Quote for the day Tags: Courage, hope, Strength
“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.”
The cliff
24 Oct 2009 2 Comments
in Poetry Tags: Courage, hope, Strength
Maybe the clouds are finally shifting
I can feel warmth on my skin
Maybe my sanity is returning
The thread now doesn’t seem so thin
The free fall seemed to last forever
How could I reach the end alive?
But though I’m bruised, bleeding and broken
I now know I can survive
I tried to keep myself together
But honestly, I thought I’d fail
Because no one should be ripped apart
And have to live to tell the tale
I guess I assumed too much too quickly
How could I know we’d end up here?
But though this could eventually destroy me
I can not give into the fear
There is a strength I found within me
I would’ve sworn I never had
So next time I fall and hit the bottom
Just maybe….it might not hurt as bad
