something real

How can you breathe without exhaling?
How can you see with eyes shut tight?
Why are you scared to feel the warmth?
And therefore only trust the night
Why do you let him be your habit?
Surrender sense for one more fix?
Why play a game you know you'll lose?
And bet your heart on magic tricks
Exerting so much strength for nothing
Running flat-out standing still
Dreaming dreams you don't believe in
And have no faith left to fulfill
Trust me, I know it's not that easy
To change a life your molded to
But it's not really life now, is it?
It's not your heart if nothings true
It's time to stop the wistful yearning
Do something radical and real
If you never bear the scars
How can you know that you will heal?

My own worst enemy

It was a long and arduous road
But I endured and overcame
I found the place only imagined
Now life will never be the same
I am amazed and overwhelmed
Love reached a whole new soaring height
Where once was fear inducing shadow
Now almost blinds with brilliant light
Yet while I’m drowning here in magic
The tortured poet lies within
She whispers dark into my daytime
And lets doubt crawl under my skin
Joy overflows, beyond amazed
So much to colour darkened dreams
Yet she always looks for threads
To slowly pull apart the seams
Why search for what tomorrow holds
When here and now is more than bliss?
With so much pure inspiration
How could I ask for more than this?

Update…..

Just wanted to say a big hello to everyone and let you know that I haven’t vanished, I have been a bit preoccupied getting ready and welcoming a new little addition….my one week old daughter Lyric :) But this experience is bringing out a whole new level of inspiration that I will hopefully get a chance to share with you soon.

Brylie xxx

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I’ll learn

I can not sleep inside the fear

I need the joy of peaceful dreams

Of a world complete and beautiful

No longer tearing at the seams

I have to turn my back on darkness

Though it inspires me to write

I’ll learn to find my inspiration

In this all-embracing light

There is adventure in the air

And I am anxious to begin

Accept the past, but walk away

Embrace the new life closing in

I’m quitting company with shadows

They make the world seem way too small

There’s nothing wrong with chasing dreams

To choose your path and have it all

It’s in all of us

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be?
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Overwhelmed

I couldn’t feel less like myself

This pen feels heavy in my hand

The words just will not write themselves

And I can’t make you understand

I’m not ungrateful….Just insane

And I can’t make sense of these tears

I’m overwhelmed and over tired

And giving in to secret fears

I searched a lifetime, chased a wish

But never thought it would come true

Yet here it is, and I’m amazed

But kind of lost on what to do

Too many downdrafts on my wings

When all I want to do is soar

Now that I have all that I dreamed

How could I ever ask for more?

I want to unpack all this baggage

And walk away in just my skin

To just enjoy these fleeting moments

I never thought I would be in

Surreal

Always reaching for the stars
You miss the beauty on the ground
Always searching for the hidden
You lose what you’ve already found
I’m feeling lost in the transition
My world so altered and surreal
A haze of change in life and dreams
To finally see, to finally feel
Don’t get me wrong, I love this light
I wouldn’t change it for the world
A contrast frightening and amazing
Accepting all that has unfurled
I find it strange to realize
It’s hard to write without the pain
The words get lost inside the joy
I never thought I would obtain
More inspired than I’ve known
It’s taking time to readjust
Forming new words in my heart
While turning all the past to dust

Dig deep

“Everything in life is connected somehow. You may have to dig deep to find it but it’s there. Everything is the same even though it’s different. Somehow everything connects back with your life. The faces in certain places may be different, but the situation is the same.

Irony is a hidden factor that creeps around us in life, letting its presence felt only after it has left. Picture back to a year ago and the situation you were in. Look at how things are different yet somehow everything it still in someway cognate. Everything connects together to form the balance of life, to maintain structure.

Change is and always will be inevitable, but everything is relative, and all the moments and times in your life will come back around again, you just might find yourself on the other side of the coin.

Things are always changing, as fast as everything stays the same”.

What’s the point?

What’s the point of inspiration
If there’s no one to inspire?
And if there’s nothing to ignite
Why would I try to start a fire?
I write to set my demons free
I write to give whats in my heart
But why create another world
If no one wants to be a part?
Do you think my words are selfish?
Or is there just no time to care?
Your absence looms inside my mind
And still you’re not even aware
You used to move me and amaze me
But now it all seems so rehearsed
What would you do? How would you feel
If this was somehow all reversed?
You want to reach out, touch their hearts
You want the world to know your name
But you can’t even comprehend
That someone else would want the same
So I’ll sit and write these words
That you will never even read
Despite myself, it’s your approval
That I still want…though I don’t need

Lost in a dream

I have been running for so long
I can’t remember how to stop
I’ve been climbing up for years
And find I’m surprised to reach the top
I ached, I longed to find this gem
And now it sits here in my hand
I was familiar with my grief
But not this dream where I now stand
I am so thankful and so grateful
And yet I feel a little lost
I guess I never quite believed
In case I could not bear the cost
I was so focused on the process
There was so little room for hope
I shut off half of who I was
It was the only way to cope
Now I stand here in the sunlight
And I don’t quite know what to do
I should just breathe in and enjoy it
After all that we’ve been through
But it’s so strange and so surreal
When I’d resigned myself to dark
The only light I thought I knew
A rare and feeble little spark
I’m overwhelmed beyond belief
I’m scared, I’m happy and I’m free
Of all the bitterness and pain
That had so long surrounded me
I’m scared to close my eyes in case
A nightmare takes it all away
The words are bursting in my heart
And yet….I don’t know what to say

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